MARK'S... ------------------------------------------------------------ * * * *** * * ***** * ***** ***** ***** ***** *** * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *** * *** * * *** *** * * * * * * * * * * * * * ***** *** * ***** ***** ***** * * ***** * * ------------------------------------------------------------ Volume 2 ~ Issue 1 ~ 11 January 2000 (C)2000 Mark Krell ------------------------------------------------------------ LOVE CONQUERS ALL! No it doesn't! Whaddaya do when you're cuddling an attractive size 8 lady with nice features, great legs, and a loving heart and you know that it can't really go anywhere because she won't let go of self-destructive behaviors that will bring your life to ruin if you affiliate with her? Whaddaya do when the lady does such nice things when comparatively sober that you just want to fall in love with her, keep and cherish her and live happily ever after? Whaddaya do when she tells you of the hells she's been through with men who should have been born as rats, and you understand why she feels the need to drink? Whaddaya do when she tells you that you make her feel as she never has before? When she happily declares that you've done things with her that nobody has ever done before? Created reactions and fulfillments within her that she has never experienced before? Whaddaya do when you think that this lady has been through so much hell at the hands of bad men, that if she ever truly loved you she'd be so appreciative of the way you treat her that you'd have a loyal and loving partner? Whaddaya do when you realize that this is a lady who, although troubled, is neither cheap nor a slut and you can see that she honestly likes you, and her touch makes you feel like you've always wanted to feel? You spend a few days with her to allow her to get a sense of where she is and who you are in hopes of her getting enough information about the possibility of her living a better life. And then, you feel a profound sense of sadness that you were not enough to influence her choices in positive directions. You say goodbye because you know that love will not stay alive with destructive influences in your lives. You say goodbye because it's the right thing to do. Whaddaya do after you say goodbye? You miss her terribly. --------------------------------------------------------------- SOME WOMEN WOULDN'T LIKE THAT... A lady who was obviously very appreciative of me in many ways (with good reason) watched me move from a wheel chair to the sofa... I move with a considerable degree of dignity and am not clumsy... Still, she commented that, "Many women would not like that."... I couldn't resist... I smiled at her and asked, "They don't know what they're missing, do they?"... She smiled. -------------------------------------------------------------- WATER SEEKS IT'S OWN LEVEL... Maybe I shouldn't expect to find a reasonably sane attractive lady. After all, having no feet and using a wheelchair doesn't exactly make me the best candidate for a nice lady... Maybe I should be willing to settle for a crazy lady, or maybe an unattractive lady, or maybe a lady with problems... HOGWASH! There's nothing second class about the person I am or the quality of loving that I deliver. And, while I would have been willing to accept and feel lucky to have certain ladies who had problems which were not of their own making and not under their control... I draw the line at accepting ladies who are not willing to do what they reasonably can to deal with problems, keep themselves in the best condition they can, and make themselves ready to love another in a healthy way. I'm not making this search easy, am I? ------------------------------------------------------------- RELYING ON GOD. Some people prefer to believe that God will take care of them and provide for their happiness. Some believe this because of their strong faith in God. Some believe this because they think it means that they don't have to do anything to solve the problems that may be stumbling blocks to them finding happiness. This is America where the majority religion is Christianity. Best to illustrate this with Christian teaching, right? Ask most Christians, "If God loves us so much, how can He allow so much bad treatment of people at the hands of their fellows?", and you'll be told that God creates us with our own free will and that it's up to us to live up to God's plan for us." This is great support for the old adage that, "God helps those who help themselves!" So, when I hear a person say things like, "I want God to send me someone who will see past my problems and love me for the beautiful person I am.", I hear someone who has decided to lose. Love requires mutual respect. How does one have a healthy respect for someone who has decided to lose? Now waitaminute some will say... "I have NOT decided to lose!!!" There is a saying, "Not to decide IS to decide!"... If you haven't decided to win and put that decision into positive action... You have decided to lose! Dear God, I am doing my best to help myself... All I ask from you is that I encounter enough possibilities to eventually find a winner. Mark ------------------------------------------------------------- Previous LoveLetters can be read at http://eiw.com/loveletters/ Feel free to recommend LoveLetters to those of your friends to whom it may be helpful or entertaining... http://eiw.com/loveletters/ If you no longer wish to receive LoveLetters, send an email to me with "No More LoveLetters" as the subject. ----------------------------------------------------------- end of issue. |