MARK'S... ------------------------------------------------------------ * * * *** * * ***** * ***** ***** ***** ***** *** * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *** * *** * * *** *** * * * * * * * * * * * * * ***** *** * ***** ***** ***** * * ***** * * ------------------------------------------------------------ Volume 3 ~ Issue 5 ~ 5 February 2000 (C)2000 Mark Krell ------------------------------------------------------------ I've been busy lately... but that doesn't mean that things worth noting haven't been happening... On the home front, I just installed a pretty gas log type heater in the bedroom... on the wall just high enough to be seen over my waterbed... I'd been struggling with this buying decision for a while, thinking that just for ambiance #300 is a lot to spend... but it looked so nice in the store... I did the install of the unit and talked a buddy step-by-step through running the gas line... like many nice things I've done around the house, this is going to be one of those things where I thought hard about spending the money but very quickly became glad I did it... Now, not only does the bedroom look a bit more romantic but that little sucker is proving that it can keep the whole house warm--set on low!... It may prove cheaper to run it on low and leave the central heat come on only when it really needs to on very cold days. I justify the expenditure rationally by knowing that I now have a heat source that does not depend on electric power... I have a generator out back that allows me to run the central heat (and more) but if noone's around to start it... The eseeking front has not been silent, but has not been good either... The following will give you an idea of some of my experiences... ---------------------------------------------------------------- A RUSSIAN LADY AND MY TOGETHER PAGE... She can't read English well?... She didn't take the time?... Dear Mark. Thanks for the photo. I worked this week hard. And I had not free minute to write you. I'm very sorry that I don't have a computer at home. Only when I'm at work I can find a computer and write to you. But I can do it only when I'm free from my work. Unfortunately it happens not too often. If you want I can write you short letters through e-mail and normal (not short) by regular mail. Let me know your address. OK. I know a person with Internet access at home, but I need to pay a lot for one letter. That boy is not my friend and I knew about him through my friend. I usually come at home at 6 p.m. But it's from the first regular job. If I have some work from another job I bring it at home and do it at night or if I know that I have not a lot work in the regular job I bring it there. I lost one job in a store. There is new boss and he said he does not need me. OK. I'm not upset. I have enough work without it and they paid almost nothing. I would be upset to loose my regular job. I do same type of artwork at the different places. I do advertisement by hand. Yes we are still primitive people. There are not many computers in Russia and I live in small town. I don't know how I can send some my work to you. I even can't send my photos. I don't have a computer and people who work here know only basic. If something wrong we stick. Tell me about your father and mother. I don't remember my father. He left us when I was a child. My mother raised three children alone. In that time it was difficult to do it. I'm going to go to the USA during spring or summer. It's not easy to do. I'm afraid if embassy won't let me go. I read you letter on web page but not everything yet. It is interesting. I tried to attach photos but something wrong and don't go through. I'll able to send my real photos by mail. I hope to hear from you soon. Sincerely, ***** It is unfair to allow a lady to ignore the truth, whatever the reason... Dear *****, If you had read my web page, you would now know a lot about me. Because you did not take the time to read the entire page, I feel it necessary to tell you now that I am a wheelchair user. A full explanation of this is in my web page at http://eiw.com/together/ If you are like most women, you will not wish to correspond further and I will have nothing but kind thoughts about you. One of the problems two people who speak different languages have in forming a close love together is that a complete understanding of each other is difficult. Without understanding each other well, it is hard for a man and a woman to build great trust in each other. And, without great trust in each other, strong devoted love is not possible. I am in a difficult position because I am a very nice sincere and loving man, but because I use a wheelchair it has been difficult for most women to want to be with me. Asking you to read my web page was the right thing for me to do. I am a truthful person, and the web page would have told you everything that is very important for you to know about me. The type of art you tell me you are doing is called "Graphic Art" in English, and you would be described as a "Graphic Artist". The field of occupation is generally refered to as "Graphic Arts". I am assuming that your art is intended for reproduction by printing or silk-screening processes. If your art originals are intended for display in stores, you would be called a "Display Artist" in English. I did graphic art for printing for many years... Now I do computer generated graphics for display on the many websites at eiw.com which is my internet server... Many samples of my work can be found by exploring eiw.com... Even the 3-D (three dimentional) animation of the world globe and the letters EIW is of my making. You and I have something in common... My father left my mother when I was only one year old and she was pregnant with my younger brother Stephen. She had many problems, but I am sure that she did the best she could for me. Even so, my growing up was not easy. I think that there are more computers in the cities in Russia, and I do understand how hard it is for you to check email regularly. If you do wish to correspond further, my street address appears below. If your address on a letter from me to you needs to be in Russian, please print it clearly in black ink on white paper and enclose it with your letter. I will scan it and print the envelopes with my computer printer. Please do not be offended if I send International Reply Coupons in an effort to be of some small help to you. But remember... you are under no obligation to respond further to me... Reading the rest of my web page will give you enough information for you to make a decision you feel is right for you. Best Regards, Mark We'll see... we'll see... -------------------------------------------------------------------- A LADY WHO WILL NEVER ALLOW HERSELF TO REALLY SEE ME... I preface this by telling you that I never write to a lady whose listing says anything about her weight other than slender or average... Also, please remember that I use the words "maintains slender to average weight" on my together page... Here's one I received yesterday... Wow! That was wonderful! You are a talented writer, I presume? Please forgive me for not responding to this before now. This is the first time I have been on this system since Christmas, 1999. So busy with work, you know. I am fascinated. I would like to talk to you in person. I want you to know I am not a Barbie doll but I am not a Rosanne either. I am more like an Oprah. I am 5'2" tall, 180 lbs. Shapely, as I do work out at a gym. Healthy - energetic. Active. Sports minded. I love movies and books and science fiction particularly. Other things as well. I am articulate, college educated and fluent in at least 4 languages. ****** and ***** are my specialities. I like people and animals. I am a great listener. I live in the ********** area of Atlanta. I am an Office Manager by day. What else would you like to know? ****** What else am I supposed to want to know about a lady who outweighs me by 25 pounds, ignores what I said in my web page, elects not to send a photo, and responds two months after I wrote her without even giving me a clue of where I saw her listing or what her username (handle) was?... Here's the real point I want to make... She is not a great listener... She listens to what she wants to listen to and figures what she does not want to hear shouldn't matter... In a world where average weights for a 5'2" tall lady range from 110 to 125 pounds, she has decided that 55 pounds overweight is "average"... I've seen Oprah lately and she's NOT "average"... Makes me wonder how... If she believed my sincerity about the things she read that she liked, why did she not believe my sincerity about the things she didn't like? Some of you may get some feelings of satisfaction from what a dear friend has told me... She maintains that I am rejecting some very nice loving ladies over this weight issue... She also asks me, "During the years when you were fat, weren't you the same loving person?"... My first response is, "Yes."... After giving this some consideration I have to change my answer to "No."... I admit to my emotional loving position being essentially the same, but I remember the lady (in an earlier issue) who told me how disappointed she was when her husband gained so much weight that sex became difficult... I also know that I am a better lover now than I used to be... That I present a cleaner person with more energy than I ever had in years past. But I digress... Keeping in mind that I have no right to ask this lady to change for me... And, that she didn't say anything like, "I am heavy now because of the effects of lonliness, but I want very much to trim down and I know that I can..."... And, remembering that no matter how gently I tried to address the weight issue with heavy ladies in past, their defensive response was to frown and show enough disapproval that I knew saying another word could mean something terrible would happen... The bottom line question in my mind is, "Do I want another lady who wants what she wants and is not motivated to present her best possible self to me? Been there... done that... got the t-shirt! I'd sooner take a lady with no education and no fluency in any language who thought I was important enough to her for her to want to maintain herself well. -------------------------------------------------------------------- AN ON-LINE REJECTION. I wrote... "I've seen you online several times but I figured I could never get the attention of a class act like you, but I'm feeling brave tonight... Check out the guy at http://eiw.com/together/ and decide my Prince:Frog ratio for yourself. She wrote... "I'm not a class act." I wrote... "Next, if I tell you how beautiful you are to me you'll tell me you're not beautiful?" I will never hear from her again. -------------------------------------------------------------------- CRAZY LADIES... Many many years ago during my wild single days... Two young ladyz were hitching a ride by roadside... I stopped... When they learned that I was from out of town and that I had a motel room, my room became their destination of choice... I was going to say no?... Not on your life!... Not being a complete fool, when they told me in so many words that I was "getting lucky" I rolled up my pants (containing my wallet) and put them under the side of the bed... And boy did I get lucky!... It was when I noticed one gal laying across the bed with her arms reaching back over her head to the floor that I realized what was going on... When I checked the floor she had my trousers half-way unrolled... I got pissed off and told them they had to get out... And then these crazy ladies told me that if I wouldn't call the sheriff, they would do anything I wanted... They did!... Afterwards, I took them out to eat and we parted as friends. :) --------------------------------------------------------------- Previous LoveLetters can be read at http://eiw.com/loveletters/ Feel free to recommend LoveLetters to those of your friends to whom it may be helpful or entertaining... http://eiw.com/loveletters/ If you no longer wish to receive LoveLetters, send an email to me with "No More LoveLetters" as the subject. ----------------------------------------------------------- end of issue. |