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 Volume 3 ~ Issue 8 ~ 16 February 2000   (C)2000 Mark Krell
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ROMANCE AND REAL LOVE...

   Some people feel that being romantic means focusing on things that
are not necessarily parts of a genuine love between the parties
in a REAL love relationship...

   These people will point out differences they see between romance
and "real" love by claiming things like...

   Romance is looking for somebody who perfectly meets one's expectations
while real love means forgiving imperfections... or...

   Romance has your head in the clouds while "real" love has the safety
of having your feet on the ground... or...

   Romance is the torture of waiting for the phone to ring to bring you
a voice that will say loving things while love is the torture of waiting
for a call that will assure you someone else is well and safe... or...

   Romance is enthusiastic, striving always to appear attractive for
the other while "real" love is two people who find beauty in each other
no matter how they look... or...

   Real love expresses itself in many ways -- the love of spouses; the
love of friends; the love of families. Real love doesn't require one
to be "in love," and will likely grow over the years...

   I'm willing to bet that some readers will think these claims are
reasonable... 

   I know that some of you think that my expectations are not reasonable
and perhaps those of you who feel that way may also think that I'm
making it harder to find a good lady than it has to be...

   Boy! Are you guys easily had by the poor thinkers who write claims
like those above!...

   Let's take a look at them shall we?...

   The only true claim is that you do not have to be romantically in
love with people to love them, like family, friends, etc.

   The only way the claim that you do not have to be in love with your
spouse (or your significant other) can be true is if you've decided to
settle for less than a genuine committed love relationship should have
as an alive and vital part of it...

   The biggest deception in the above claims is that Romance opposes
real love... That if you are romantic, you don't have your feet on the
ground and you are not really loving... Hogwash!

   I maintain that real intimate healthy love between man and woman
needs romance kept alive in the relationship!...

   Having settled for less a few times in past, and, reaping the
punishments thereof... I feel qualified as an expert on this subject!...
I have learned this well...

   I recognize that I will never find a "perfect" woman... That's not my
objective, nor do I think I am perfect...  I do expect to find a lady who,
while she will have her weaknesses, hopefully they will be in areas that
will not threaten or guarantee failure of both of us being happy and
healthy with each other...

   This in my mind is reasonable... I have made it clear in past issues
that I don't need hollywood beauty to respond to a lady... I have said
that I want a partner who looks feminine and reasonably shaped...

   How else am I going to be able to tell her she's beautiful to me...
How else am I going to be motivated to be romantic over a lifetime?

   Many ladies have told me of men who only made romantic gestures 
towards them when they felt they had to, and then often grudgingly...

   I was married for too many years to a lady who looked great at 105
pounds for a couple of years, and then ballooned to 165... As her weight
increased, I loved her, but felt progressively less romantic about her...
Every gentle approach I tried towards addressing this issue was met with
such immediate disapproval from her that I had to give up...

   Do I want this again?...

   Certainly I recognize areas in which I am not perfect... But I also
recognize some very good things about myself... I have always made a
good effort to be responsive to the needs and wants of the partners I've
had... I have never had a fight with a lady that included violence like
screaming, yelling or physical injury... I have never had to face a
lady's anger because I've lied to her... My relationships with past
partners have all ended on a friendly basis... No woman has been angry
with me and wanting to "take me for all I've got" or otherwise hurt me...
No woman has ever had me expecting her to do all the cooking, laundry,
or household chores... No woman who ever wanted to cuddle ever had me
avoid her except a lady in whom all libido seemed to die when she got
fat... I got frustrated after a few years of nothing ever happening
when we were close... 

   Based on most of the stories ladies have told me about how they
were treated by men in their past, I don't think I'm so bad... I deserve
to have the love of a good lady who loves me enough to want to give her
best possible self to me.

   I also know that I get a great deal of pleasure when I'm treating
a lady well and giving her regular assurance of my love for her and her
attractiveness to me...

   A good lady has the right to expect this from me, but how can this
be real if she's not helping me to feel this way about her?

   The ladies side of it?... Same thing but worded differently... Don't
join with a man you don't value, trust and respect and are not sufficiently
attracted to that your expectation of that attraction enduring over time
is not very strong. 

   Most of the "requirements" on my together page (you could be that lady
if) are not looking for perfection... They ARE an attempt to avoid having
my life filled with grief again... 

   No romantic ideals are needed when choosing a partner... Just someone
with whom there is enough going for you to have the prediction of your
love relationship being healthy in every room of the house...

   And, if they have the wisdom to keep themselves attractive to you and
treat you with love and kindness, and they think of you as part of them
and not as an adversary...

   WHAT'S SO HARD ABOUT FEELING ROMANTIC TOWARDS THEM?

   Romance can and should live in a healthy love... If you cannot expect
this when choosing a new partner, you lose.

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MARK TALKS MEAN TO A VERY STUBBORN LADY...

   Remember the lady who didn't want to hear anything she didn't want
to hear in two issues back?... Would you believe she didn't give up?... 
Her thinking what she wants is more important than hearing what another
person is telling her pushed me past my limit yesterday...

   After reading the following, you might wonder how Mark can write such
nice stuff like the above article and be so mean to this nice church
going lady... Ask any Christian and they'll tell you there are a lot of
demons in the Church...

   Remembering that I was a nice guy before I ever met her, I realized
that I had to deal with this demon or this nonsense would go on forever...

   I really do care about what you think, and I hope that you still like
me after this, but I refuse to lie by omission only presenting the cutsy
flowery things to you...

   In this case... She richly deserved it... She repeatedly asked for it...
So, she got it!...

   I could have shown less love to her and given her a "nice" response
depriving her of possibly growth producing information... But, hey!...
I'm a pretty loving guy! :)


Feb15,0:58, She said: 
  I think its silly to get into these discussions,
because I have my thoughts and you have yours. If
you want to be friends and talk, fine, if not,
thats your choice. There is nothing wrong with
being friends.

Feb15,1:48, I said:
  You certainly have the right to your thoughts.
You even have the right to ignore my thoughts as
evidenced by what you wrote which appears above.
If you were paying attention to what was really
happening yesterday instead of only focusing on
what you want, you would never have written to
me today.

  I clearly told you that you were not treating
me fairly and that I am convinced that you see
only what you want to see.

  I also made it abundantly clear that you and
I are looking for different things.

  Weren't you paying attention?  Was attention
charging too much?

  If you had an ounce of goodwill instead of
being so concerned with what you want, you'd
be asking yourself why any man would want to
cultivate a friendship with a lady who can't
hear him and refuses to acknowlege his right
to his feelings.

  Friends hear each other.  Attempting
friendship with you is like trying to teach
a pig to sing... it wastes time, and it
annoys the pig.

  Wherever did you get the absurd idea that I
must be wrong if I don't want to behave the
way you want me to behave?

  I have a mental picture of you getting to
heaven and telling God what He's doing wrong
and God pushing the down button for you.

  As educated as you say you are, your
education has not served you well.  Nobody
ever succeeded in teaching you how to
listen... Don't worry... You're not alone.
I've run into "you" before.

  And, until you lose that haughty attitude
that you are educated and you have morals,
you'll never connect with what Jesus meant
when he said, "That which ye do to the
least of them, ye do unto me."

  Loving other people includes being able
to accept them, and sometimes to help them;
but to genuinely help them, first you have
to accept them.

  I'm pretty sure you are often in church,
but I am convinced that you have some more
to learn about being a Christian.

  I also entertain a guess that if you
had put loving your ex ahead of your
education and your morals, maybe both of
your lives might be very different today.
This is only a guess because I know what
stinkers some men can be.

  I also suspect that you not caring
whether another love comes into your life
has much to do with previous failures
at love due to your attitudes.

  "I'm rightous and you're a sinner" isn't
going to cut it with Jesus who was trying
to teach us to genuinely love and accept
each other.  You have exceeded my limit
of acceptance with your assumptions and
quick judgements.

  So, why am I writing this?... Because
with your attitudes there's no hope of
me ever getting close to you...

  The only thing remaining that I CAN
do is give you some information which if
you could hear might be helpful.

  Don't like what I'm saying... Think
I'm wrong... That's OK... Two people
are allowed to disagree... Now, go
punish somebody else.

  Mark

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THE PERFUME COUNTER...

   I noticed she was getting low on her favorite perfume... I went
to the department store's perfume counter and asked the lady for
a bottle... She asked, "Is it her birthday?"... "No."... She asked,
"Your anniversary?"... "No."... "Well, Christmas is too far away,
what's the occasion?", she asked... I said, "No occasion... she
doesn't ask for a lot and I saw she was running out of it."...
She said, "With a husband like you she doesn't have to!"

   Her reaction is a sad comment about many men.  Don't you feel
sorry for the men who deprive themselves of the joy they could
feel by actively loving their women?

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